The Difference a New Bed Makes

So Friday 10/24 I got a new bed. And the flash forward opinion is that this bed is pretty awesome. Its compfy and leaves more space in my room but my initial reaction to it wasn't as positive nor was the process from purchase to sleeping.

I have been looking for a bed for about 9 months. The problem with bed hunting is that it requires compromise. I am no stranger to compromise I do it all the time; in fact, I think I might compromise a little too much. I wanted to find a bed that would restore my sleep but not break my will to live by sucking the life out of my wallet. I searched and salesmen tried their level best to sell me on a bed. It wasn't till I saw a huge poster for an outlet mattress place that a real prospect came available. Its a warehouse on Atlantic and I got to lay on the different beds and see prices without a salesmen being up my butt the whole time. The prices were lowish and I was tired of losing sleep so I purchased a bed. I was thinking this was the end to my woes and was kind of excited even till the day the bed was supposed to be delivered.

I realized that I needed sheets and blankets that fit. Seeing that this new bed is a different size you would think I would have already made this correlation upon the purchase. I didn't. On bed delivery day, I had to go out looking for something to clothe the thing. I had no idea that comforters and sheets and such cost so much!!! In looking for a reasonable price I started to get a little anxious and then to sweat and finally frustrated. This is absolutely the wrong time to be shopping for anything. I hate crowds, people suck during the holidays and well I just felt like I was spending way too much on this bed endeavor. After speaking to my good friend who assured me that the prices I was seeing were very real and the ones I found were actually more than reasonable they were out-n-out cheap I made a purchase. I went home after a very long day of bed clothes shopping and washed my winnings.

It took forever wash and dry as the comforter was very large and needed a couple of cycles in the dryer. I was determined though to make my first night of sleep worth the purchases made. 1 am and I am finally going to bed. 3 am or so I finally go to sleep. Not such a great night all the anxiety and shopping to contend with made it difficult plus its a new bed so it was kinda more stiff than the one I tried out in the warehouse. Day 2 better but still tense over the purchases. As the days roll along it gets better and now I am sleeping the best I have in years.

Now why was this blog-worthy you ask? The bed situation is indicative to how I treat myself. I buy things for my little one without blinking an eye. There are times when I don't even look at the cost with the justification that if she needs it she just needs it. I don't have the same opinion about my needs. Hell to get to the core of it I don't really even acknowledge I have needs most of the time. I do have needs. I am not at all certain what I will do with that acknowledgment but now that I know that small truth its hard to un-know it. I imagine that it means going forward I will need to stop ignoring the truth and start doing something about my neglected needs.

This revelation is brought you by...A new bed!